Summer

Yesterday was just about perfect in my mind. The sun was out and it was warm. I really enjoyed my day. I spent a lot of time outside and I even took the time to jump on our trampoline with my girls. I remembered how to play some games that my brother and I used to play as children on our trampoline. It was fun. Today, McKayla has t-ball this morning. More clouds are suppose to be rolling in by tonight. We even have warnings of flooding in our area. I hope that this will not be the case. I am hoping that by Saturday, the sun will shine upon us again. I like the sun and I miss it. I may have to paint my kitchen yellow just to pretend it's the sun.

Life

Sometimes life can be a challenge. My life the past month has been that. I have dealt with more spiritual, emotional, and temporal challenges in the last month than I feel like I ever have. I finally feel like I am waking up from the grief and dispair today and I can see somethings that I can learn from these challenges. First of all, I have learned that one can never become too comfortable in things. If you become comfortable, then slowly you start backtracking, and before you know it, trouble lies at your feet. Life is a chance to use every day to fight for what you believe and make yourself better. You can never just think or act like you are doing "good enough" because that is a very dangerous place to be. Adversity is no respecter of person. Trials come because of other's or your own choices. No one can escape this. it is life. Everyone has trials that are their very own trials. Another lesson is that fear and faith cannot co-exits. It is impossible. I am sorry that I have been away and not really among the living the last month. I am hoping to be more upbeat and positive. I need to meet my challenges rather than hiding from everyone. Thanks for all the love and support everyone has given me and my family. I appreciate it very much.

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Gardening

I bought my garden plants and seeds yesterday. I am excited to set out and start planting. I relize that I have a lot of work to do ahead of me and I am thrilled. It should be a strong testimony as to my love to the girls at my church last night because I went and hung out with them last night after I bought the plants. I am going to try something different with teh garden area. (Don't worry Steve and Janis). I am going to divied the area up with stakes and sqaures so that I can more auratly adjust for walking areas. I am excited. I want to see how it turns out. I'll let you know.

Real Love

I remember when Chad and I were dating I had googly eye expectations. The silly romantic notion that we would be able to spend more time together and life would be perfect. Well, as you know, that's not exactly how it worked out. I have learned to appreciate the little things. One of my favorite things is called "daddy diverson". I never relized that once I became a mother I would never be able to take a bath or go to the bathroom by myself. It gets old after awhile. So once in a while I will tell my girls, "Hey your dad has a surprise for you!' And off they run to dad while I go into the bathroom and lock the door for a long buble bath without little kids. It's quite nice. Chad takes it all in stride and will put a movie on for teh girls or play a game for them. See, that's real love. It's not about spending time with one anther, it's about surviving this thing called life and helping eachother out.

Snicker, Snicker, Snort

So, my father in law has a very green thumb. He keeps his lawn in golf course green condition. I assumed it was a secret passed down from father to son for many generations. Alas, Chad did not know the secret. Then we learned the secret of fertilizer. We had always put fertilizer on our lawn but I learned that you mix it with some other stuff too and presto, we have a golf course. While I have been whining and complaining about the rain I did notice that our lawn looks pretty darn awesome. It is lush and green. In fact we might be able to play golf once the rain stops. And for some odd reason that made me laugh this morning.

TV, Weather and Depression

What on earth is my title talking about? Well really it's just the randomness of thoughts going through my head. I realized last night that I am suffering from an acute bout of depression. I realized this when I managed to watch the entire first season of "Dr. Quinn: Medicine Woman". Yep, i borrowed it from the library and instead of being a productive human I stayed in bed and allowed the girls to have the run of the house. I was a bit surprised that I finally realized that I was depressed because spring is a great season for me. I love seeing the world wake from the long sleep of winter. Then, I remembered that it snowed yesterday, the garden is still not in and my grass is 6 inches high. Oh yea, my spring hasn't quite sprung yet. However, my weeds are doing nice, thank you for asking! As watched Dr. Quinn I realized that they don't make cheesy family series like they used to. Maybe that is why I am drawn to teh BBC. I have found some great shows on there. Really I love Britsh humor and they have the cutest saying. Some time in a conversation I really want to say cheer-o, chap, boy-o, or snap. They make me smile. I am opposed to having cable because i know that I would sit in front of the tv all day, so instead I have net flicks which allows me to sit in front of the computer all day, which must be better, right? I like to watch random stuff as Chad does his homework. I have discovered some important things about myself, first of all, I like tv shows that have smart people in them. I love the series Bones because the leading lady is really smart. Someday I want to sound as smart as she is. Next, I am a romantic sap. this newes distresses me because I thought I had become a logic girl, but alas, I was bugged when the series drags out the involvement of the two main characters. Honestly, if two characters like each other and are best friends for 5 years (5 seasons) then they should just get together. i think the series could be just as strong with them as a couple. Geesh, who likes someone for 5 years and never expresses it accept through puppy dog eyes. Last, I can easily get sucked into a tv show and become obsessed. Chad says I do this with most things. If I fins a book series I like i tend to read all of it within a week. Another strike against tv. I now have to wait until September to see what happens. Sigh, I don't like movies because the story line is too short and i get angry with tv series because they take too long and I'm not a patent person. Instead of tv I should go outside, oh wait, its snowing that's why I'm in front of the tv crying because Sully finally kissed Dr. Mike on her birthday. Oh spring, so come soon before I completly lose my mind. I think it's time to close the dark and odd place that is my mind and prepare for the week.